It’s been so long since I’ve written anything, I honestly don’t know where to begin! There are so many thoughts, ideas, exclamations going on in my brain, I don’t know how this is going to be a comprehensible post…
I know, I know, just show the pictures already! Well… if you haven’t figured out by now, nothing goes as planned with the Monteith’s! We were hoping to get the remainder of the finish work completed over Christmas Break, but both of us are just SO OVER FINISH WORK, we had no real motivation to do it! Plus, it’s been unbelievably cold. Nothing gets done in the cold!
When I was younger, I knew my little brother looked up to me. I had a lot going for myself, I was pretty, smart, athletic, musical, it was easy to be proud of someone with those successes. Then, I made a series of choices that were not smart. I had graduated with a degree in Microbiology from the University of Oklahoma, jobless, homeless, and divorced. At 22 years old, I was a disappointment. However, my little brother gave me their bed until I found an apartment and wasn’t afraid to be seen in pubic with me. I mean, my parents probably made him, but he never said a word to me! I had hit my low, I had nothing to be proud of, and yet my little brother made me feel like maybe I could redeem myself.
I had almost forgotten about this time, until I opened a small Christmas present this year. Before I opened it he said, “It’s not anything big, I was in an airport in Houston and it reminded me of you.” I opened it, put it on, and said thank you. It wasn’t until later that the feelings started getting me. Since that time, almost 12 years ago, my little brother has been making much better choices than I. So much so, that I haven’t really thought there was any way he could be proud of me. The choices I have made recently, to be a public school teacher, to build a tiny house, to (attempt) homestead, most people think I am crazy! When someone asks me what I do, it’s hard for me to just say “I’m a teacher” and not “I have a Bachelors in Micro, and a Masters in Public Health Emergency Preparedness and Terrorism Response but right now I’m a 7th grade science teacher.” Recently, I have been feeling very discouraged, very unsuccessful, and maybe not very “proud” of myself, but my little brother was there for me again. He made me feel like there is still someone who is proud of me, and that I still have reason to be proud of myself. My little brother still thinks that I can achieve anything I put my mind to.
And maybe he just felt like he needed to get me a Christmas present, grabbed the first thing he saw, and gave no thought to the words! This is how I interpreted it!
So this brings me to my word of 2018, ACT. This simple phrase, “She believed she could, so she did” implies an idea and an end product. I have terrific ideas, I have very poor follow through. My husband often tells people that I’m the thinker, and he’s the doer. So for me to fully embrace this phrase, to be the person my brother thinks, or wants, me to be, I must act. To go from believe to did, there must be action. In 2018, I am going to focus on this word, to accomplish all that I believe I can do, I must take action to insure success!